[Katkoot!]

So *some* people who may be coming here or are already here may want to have this over here instead (hi! hi! told you I'd make one!).

I have a new goal now besides getting thin before any family members see me... (his)... but also my cousin is getting married in May and I have to be super-thin for that. This would be my hilariously slutty/silly/paris hilton-y cousin who has the best myspace photos of all time. I have bet with my father that her litlle rat...*cough* purse dog is going to be in the wedding. I know Versace will make an appearance at something. Being the only child, I have to represent for my family. Also, it will be the first time (unless we have a sudden wedding) that my husband will be meeting anyone, so we'll be on display. With the most gossipy Arrested-Devlopmenty family of all time, I have to look good.

This thread can and probably will involve real cursing about weight as well as all the things you felt you could never say over there. I don't know what that would be, but it will count for something along the way I am sure.

[Babydoll]

I am sitting here eatting two grapefruit right now curings that I told a friend I would meet them at the gym this morning at 6am. I hate dieting an exercising!

I have the same goals as you know some of the reasons. I also know that with my Sisters wedding in April that I need to look good if I go. Haven't made up my mind yet because of other obligations in the same time frame that also include the need to slim down in 30 weeks. I should go though it's her first wedding.

Plus there is my own wedding next summer and the meeting of all the family that puts the pressure on.

Right I better change my attitude now! I love dieting and exercising! It makes me feel so good about myself! I'm going to look fabulous in no time! Fuck ya!

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 02:59 AM, said:

I am sitting here eatting two grapefruit right now curings that I told a friend I would meet them at the gym this morning at 6am. I hate dieting an exercising!

I have the same goals as you know some of the reasons. I also know that with my Sisters wedding in April that I need to look good if I go. Haven't made up my mind yet because of other obligations in the same time frame that also include the need to slim down in 30 weeks. I should go though it's her first wedding.

Plus there is my own wedding next summer and the meeting of all the family that puts the pressure on.

Right I better change my attitude now! I love dieting and exercising! It makes me feel so good about myself! I'm going to look fabulous in no time! Fuck ya!

LOL! I did a really fast walk today and alternated it with running for 15 minutes... then now I'm doing that freaking hard exercise, the AF one, and then adding some extra weight stuff to it-- some deltoid, and shoulder lifts, back exercises (modified machine pull downs but with a barbell), and chest presses.. also a bit of extra ab and leg work.

I got 4 cherry tomatoes and a big tomato today and went and got some fat-free feta and some baby greens and made a salad... also had a vegetable pack today (a frozen stirfry, I ate all 5 servings, so 250 calories lol wow), and some fish. had my darling soda.

Don't worry, you eventually get used to the exercise... having a friend can really help! also, I found measuring yourself and then whatever you want to fit into really helps as far as a goal... then you can see how much you need to lose and how close you are getting.

When I got super, super thin before I actually used my husband as a motivator.. maybe this will work for you. Thinking about how I didn't want him to see me fat and how we were going to be naked and how he was going to see me from every which odd angle just made me run that much more lol.

Shame: it's a powerful motivator.

[Babydoll]

I have to shame myself into running then so I will be feeling good about myself in front of people.

Actually I feel pretty good 80% of the time about myself in front of others and the other 20% I just don't fucking care.

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 04:19 AM, said:

I have to shame myself into running then so I will be feeling good about myself in front of people.

Actually I feel pretty good 80% of the time about myself in front of others and the other 20% I just don't fucking care.

Yeah... well you have to get to the point where you definately want to do this for yourself. I would think that possibly a wedding or seeing your SO would help with that... I know for myself I feel so much happier when I am thinner. I know that's so freaking vain, but it's true. Also, I keep thinking about pregnancy.. it goes better as does the birthing if you exercise and I don't want to gain a ton of weight while pregnant. I don't know what is going on right now with my cycle, but this month is totally wacked out. I had a miscarriage last fall and then my body acted like I had one 2 months ago (a pass-through egg-- because was late and then bled slowly for 3 weeks). Now this month, I ovulated at the beginning of my cycle-- 2 days after I stopped my period (weird!!) and we had an accident that day too, and now I'm a week late again.. last week I had a spoty time for 3 days (just barely colored at all, no actual blood to see just tinged brown, TMI!!!) and now nothing. I don't feel pregnant like people say you do or like I did before, so I don't know. Maybe I'm getting old? But I noticed that my cycle gets tossed off if he's upset.. so maybe his stress is screwing with me. Anyway, it's not something I want to talk about over at VJ. I may go a whole pregnancy with never telling anyone lol.

[Babydoll]

Katkoot!, on Sep 10 2008, 02:29 AM, said:

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 04:19 AM, said:

I have to shame myself into running then so I will be feeling good about myself in front of people.

Actually I feel pretty good 80% of the time about myself in front of others and the other 20% I just don't fucking care.

Yeah... well you have to get to the point where you definately want to do this for yourself. I would think that possibly a wedding or seeing your SO would help with that... I know for myself I feel so much happier when I am thinner. I know that's so freaking vain, but it's true. Also, I keep thinking about pregnancy.. it goes better as does the birthing if you exercise and I don't want to gain a ton of weight while pregnant. I don't know what is going on right now with my cycle, but this month is totally wacked out. I had a miscarriage last fall and then my body acted like I had one 2 months ago (a pass-through egg-- because was late and then bled slowly for 3 weeks). Now this month, I ovulated at the beginning of my cycle-- 2 days after I stopped my period (weird!!) and we had an accident that day too, and now I'm a week late again.. last week I had a spoty time for 3 days (just barely colored at all, no actual blood to see just tinged brown, TMI!!!) and now nothing. I don't feel pregnant like people say you do or like I did before, so I don't know. Maybe I'm getting old? But I noticed that my cycle gets tossed off if he's upset.. so maybe his stress is screwing with me. Anyway, it's not something I want to talk about over at VJ. I may go a whole pregnancy with never telling anyone lol.

Holy crap you weren't kidding on the disclaimer! LOL

I think it's just our age. At the end of last semester into the summer my period was 21 days late! That has never happened. Not since I was young teen first starting my period. Then this month my period is three days heavy. That too never happens! I normally get one day heavy and the other 2-3 days can be medium to light to very light and spotting. But to have three heavy days in a row with blood every where my God you would have thought someone murdered me or my womb was falling out. Nothing like that kind of tissue though. Just blood.

I share those same concerns with body image concerning my happy weight and pregnancy. I don't think it's selfish because it means we're taking care of ourselves and apperance is part of that. We need to have confidence in our apperance because it is so sexy! I wish more people were selfish and took care of themselves to have better appearance and confidence.

[Babydoll]

Katkoot!, on Sep 10 2008, 02:29 AM, said:

Anyway, it's not something I want to talk about over at VJ. I may go a whole pregnancy with never telling anyone lol.

Just VJ MENA or Expats MENA too? Not even famiy and relatives? You're Husband at least?

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 04:36 AM, said:

Holy crap you weren't kidding on the disclaimer! LOL

I think it's just our age. At the end of last semester into the summer my period was 21 days late! That has never happened. Not since I was young teen first starting my period. Then this month my period is three days heavy. That too never happens! I normally get one day heavy and the other 2-3 days can be medium to light to very light and spotting. But to have three heavy days in a row with blood every where my God you would have thought someone murdered me or my womb was falling out. Nothing like that kind of tissue though. Just blood.

I share those same concerns with body image concerning my happy weight and pregnancy. I don't think it's selfish because it means we're taking care of ourselves and apperance is part of that. We need to have confidence in our apperance because it is so sexy! I wish more people were selfish and took care of themselves to have better appearance and confidence.

You know, I was periodically really late as a once-a-year thing. I don't know why.. then it was followed by a huge, long, annoying period. It was like spring cleaning. It happened every May, which is what I think happened this June instead. WTH is up with this age, man? I am going to put my foot down now. I am getting thinner and not any older, OK?

Well, we'er married so it can also be looked at as a good thing to do for your husband, right? I know he's really much more excited than I could ever be about the idea of me getting thinner. He asked me today about modeling since I mentioend his cousin doing it and he being his cousin's manager. I don't know. I told him he'd need to do more crunches lol. He's thin but not well-defined anymore. I also wish more people would care for themselves sometimes. Sometimes, that would really help

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 04:39 AM, said:

Katkoot!, on Sep 10 2008, 02:29 AM, said:

Anyway, it's not something I want to talk about over at VJ. I may go a whole pregnancy with never telling anyone lol.

Just VJ MENA or Expats MENA too? Not even famiy and relatives? You're Husband at least?

LOL I am not sure about VJ or Expats. Don't worry, I'd tell you lol. Family I'd tell, friends, and my husband of course. If anyone wants to be on the sign-up sheet for alerts, go ahead and sign up here! I just don't know that I want some of them all up in my business. They mostly couldn't give a flip anyway.

[Babydoll]

It helps me when someone cares for themselve. My Husband got the easy way and the Egyptian Military whipped his butt in shape for him. After our marriage he gained like 35lbs I think and started getting soft like me.

Then he lost all that weight with boot camp diet and started doing crunches. He's doing it extra for me and I'm proud of him. He is looking really good!

Makes me want to get up at 5 am meet my friend at the gym at 6 am and work out with her and eat veggies all day everyday for the next 36 weeks before I fly back to see him. I want this weight to melt like butta' so I'm back to my bomb shell body and knocking him out each night going into my sexual revolution in my 30's! Whoot! Now that is motivation right there!

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 03:52 AM, said:

It helps me when someone cares for themselve. My Husband got the easy way and the Egyptian Military whipped his butt in shape for him. After our marriage he gained like 35lbs I think and started getting soft like me.

Then he lost all that weight with boot camp diet and started doing crunches. He's doing it extra for me and I'm proud of him. He is looking really good!

Makes me want to get up at 5 am meet my friend at the gym at 6 am and work out with her and eat veggies all day everyday for the next 36 weeks before I fly back to see him. I want this weight to melt like butta' so I'm back to my bomb shell body and knocking him out each night going into my sexual revolution in my 30's! Whoot! Now that is motivation right there!

There you go! You've found a good reason to be thin and awesome! Now, if you can keep that motivation, you can go for the gold! Exercise with your friend! Eat healthy! Cheat once a week or so! Then go back to healthy! Make sure to take a day off of working out so that your muscles can recover. Also, remember brisk walking is as good or better than running... lots of women are not well-set-up for running... their pelvis is too wide and every step they take is like 3 steps for a man and twice as damaging. The angle of step is different and the femur-pelvic joint is different. We are more open down there and it makes us unstable so we had to rearrange our knees to compensate.

So has your husband been sending you pics? If not, you should get pics! Motivation!!!

[Babydoll]

Katkoot!, on Sep 10 2008, 02:59 AM, said:

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 03:52 AM, said:

It helps me when someone cares for themselve. My Husband got the easy way and the Egyptian Military whipped his butt in shape for him. After our marriage he gained like 35lbs I think and started getting soft like me.

Then he lost all that weight with boot camp diet and started doing crunches. He's doing it extra for me and I'm proud of him. He is looking really good!

Makes me want to get up at 5 am meet my friend at the gym at 6 am and work out with her and eat veggies all day everyday for the next 36 weeks before I fly back to see him. I want this weight to melt like butta' so I'm back to my bomb shell body and knocking him out each night going into my sexual revolution in my 30's! Whoot! Now that is motivation right there!

There you go! You've found a good reason to be thin and awesome! Now, if you can keep that motivation, you can go for the gold! Exercise with your friend! Eat healthy! Cheat once a week or so! Then go back to healthy! Make sure to take a day off of working out so that your muscles can recover. Also, remember brisk walking is as good or better than running... lots of women are not well-set-up for running... their pelvis is too wide and every step they take is like 3 steps for a man and twice as damaging. The angle of step is different and the femur-pelvic joint is different. We are more open down there and it makes us unstable so we had to rearrange our knees to compensate.

So has your husband been sending you pics? If not, you should get pics! Motivation!!!

No that rat bastard. This is a sore point for us. He's camera shy and so is all of his family when it comes to pictures. But they are all greedy for pix of me. They have hundreds of me. At least I get to see him live on the webcam but not as much as he sees of me.

[Babydoll]

Another thing about our age and reasons to get inshape is that pregnancy risks are higher for us at this age if we aren't taking care of ourselves. Our bodies are more delicate.

I know another one of my friends who is my age recently told me she had a miscarriage in Feb this year. She never told anyone about it and she is putting off trying for kids again for now because it was so painful for her. She's around 300 lbs now 80 lbs more than when I last saw her in college. I think that has a lot to do with it and I want the best preganancy possible if it comes to having kids someday.

[Babydoll]

Also at this age I notice I go through periods of baby fever. It's intense and obessive sometimes like the fruit is ripe for the picking and my body wants to harvest. My Mom laughs and says she went though this too and it's like our DNA just runs us to procreate. She swears the world turns round because people are always fucking. lol. DNA is like a virus and we're the host and it wants our biology to continue so it can continue. I still find it humorous the way people procreate. I mean man and woman come together and make more little people. It's so weird. Someone was saying when people tell other people they're trying to have a baby that it's inappropriate because it brings to mind the mental image of the couple touching each other and having sexy and the whole messy process to concieve a child. I just have to laugh.

I am finding myself more and more drawning into going down the baby aisle at the grocery store, or through the baby section at department stores and I don't even have a baby nor are we planning on a baby within the next year or so. I am so nesting and preparing for it since I got married. It's like someone flipped a switch on in me a year ago saying get ready for baby making.

Before I used to avoid the baby asile anywhere like the plauge and felt that it was an insult to my very being to be subjected to baby stuff everywhere I go. I have recentaly found myself a convert to the baby worshiping wanna be a mother so bad cult.

[Katkoot!]

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 05:08 AM, said:

No that rat bastard. This is a sore point for us. He's camera shy and so is all of his family when it comes to pictures. But they are all greedy for pix of me. They have hundreds of me. At least I get to see him live on the webcam but not as much as he sees of me.

Another thing about our age and reasons to get inshape is that pregnancy risks are higher for us at this age if we aren't taking care of ourselves. Our bodies are more delicate.

I know another one of my friends who is my age recently told me she had a miscarriage in Feb this year. She never told anyone about it and she is putting off trying for kids again for now because it was so painful for her. She's around 300 lbs now 80 lbs more than when I last saw her in college. I think that has a lot to do with it and I want the best preganancy possible if it comes to having kids someday.

LOL! I had the same thing but then I finally gave my husband a camera and said TAKE PICTURES. NOW. It worked for me, but I have a feeling yours is going to continue on.

Weight adds risk to pregnancy, yes. It also makes it a lot harder to concieve if you have something like PCOS, but obviously heavier women get pregnant all the time. You know, Magenta posted on various birth defects/genetic disorders in a poll on VJ. I bet she may know a lot more about risks of things related to age and whatnot.

Are you taking prenatal vitamins? I am trying to remember but I am so bad with pills. I know people say to get into a routine, but I don't actually have much of a routine in my life. Some people recommend it as just a general thing when you're considering concieving at some point...and I read somewhere that it's a good idea to start it 2 years before even having kids.

I want to be able to run miles and miles like Jenn. I don't actually want to run though. I fully realize these are conflicting ideas.

Babydoll, on Sep 10 2008, 05:16 AM, said:

Also at this age I notice I go through periods of baby fever. It's intense and obessive sometimes like the fruit is ripe for the picking and my body wants to harvest. My Mom laughs and says she went though this too and it's like our DNA just runs us to procreate. She swears the world turns round because people are always fucking. lol. DNA is like a virus and we're the host and it wants our biology to continue so it can continue. I still find it humorous the way people procreate. I mean man and woman come together and make more little people. It's so weird. Someone was saying when people tell other people they're trying to have a baby that it's inappropriate because it brings to mind the mental image of the couple touching each other and having sexy and the whole messy process to concieve a child. I just have to laugh.

I am finding myself more and more drawning into going down the baby aisle at the grocery store, or through the baby section at department stores and I don't even have a baby nor are we planning on a baby within the next year or so. I am so nesting and preparing for it since I got married. It's like someone flipped a switch on in me a year ago saying get ready for baby making.

Before I used to avoid the baby asile anywhere like the plauge and felt that it was an insult to my very being to be subjected to baby stuff everywhere I go. I have recentaly found myself a convert to the baby worshiping wanna be a mother so bad cult.

LOL! I drag my husband down those aisles. he doesn't want to go because it depresses him that we don't have kids. I try to make him go to inspire him. I'm evil.